dates and psychiatry post

i have a new psychiatrist (pdoc).  He's a Fucking Moron.
Bipolar Depression responds to anti depressant therapy, but this guy, and his MD from what appears to be a matchbook, thinks i'll go apeshit insane if i take an ad. 
I do very well on a.d.s  in fact, cymbalta has likely saved my life. 
but nooooooooooooo  he wants me to take lamictal
lamictal which increased my sensitivity to metal, so i can't wear my wedding rings.  lamictal, the answer to everything, except hypomania, if you read up on the lit.

hopefully the combo of lith and lamictal with abilify and neurontin will work out nicely.    i also hope medicare will continue to cover it indefinitely,  but who gives a shit right now.

The Otherh is on a date tonight, he's been dating a lot out lately.  I love it, he's so happy to connect with men again.  I can't seem to snag a date that I want to revisit, especially since I really would like to date a woman right now, and the scene here isn't too swell.  Our sex life goes through the roof when we're seeing other people, for whatever reason (or none, that's fine with me.)  the only deterrent is that the moth is still staying with us.

Otherh has a new gig, he's working for the state in a capacity not unlike one he took in Ontario.  it seems to be a good thing.  but it's only been a week.   

and of course there's the dogs. 
dogs are my whole life, aside from the aforementioned.  it's kind of great.

I've been learning how to bake.  it's a great big challenge.  At 230 this morning I made my first pound cake. 
Word: don't ice it while it's hot.  And cool before eating.

Comments

[The CultureGhost]

My mechanic (since the only thing psychiatrists do these days is med management, I now call them mechanics) said once again the schism over whether or not to treat BP with anti-depressants is raging once again. He said there is a small, but vocal, group who do this every few years. He then asked me if I wanted to try Lamictal...no thanks. I always thought Lamictal sounds like the name of a third rate Shakesperean henchman.

If I could just figure out how my six week cycle really works and then tailor my med consumption accordingly, I would be onto something.

[om]

mechanic is a good name for them. personally, i don't know why they don't jump at the concept that a hypomanic/energetic bipolar could be a good thing. maintaining "bleh" is so.... you know...craptastic.

i beat mine at his own game by having been on damned near every med (including Verapamil!) he could think up to ask me about, and reporting whyyyy it was a good/not so good med. like "well, topamax works frontal lobe manias, and i'm lucky enough to have that..."
In yer face, mofo.

where the hell have *you* been, oh ghost of mine?

[The CultureGhost]

There must be something universal about this condition for "bleh" is the exact word I used when I saw my mechanic this past Wednesday. He laughed and asked if he indeed should write it down on my chart. Might as well for "bleh" has been about my state of affairs.

I'm probably running a low grade depressive episode right now and for the past few weeks. Probably triggered by the SigOt having a near miss with a major depressive episode. I tend to retreat into a high function-utilitarian mode of operation. Vigilant and productive, but not creative nor enjoying life much. Sort of bored with it right now. Would greatly welcome a hypomanic edge for a few days so I might rekindle my enthusiasm for living.